Neverending loop of insanity

135...

Just five more...

Runrunrunrun...

129.5...

Just four more...

Runrunrunrun....

125...

Just five more...

runrunrunrun....

123...

Just three more...

runrunrunrun...

119...

Just four more...

Just five more...

Just three more...

When will eating/drinking/anger/anxiety/shame/frustration/sadness/HABIT stop being the reason for the number to be all wrong?

I Am My Disorder.